Lets Just say I am tired ..

I have 19 days till I get my CPAP machine and it can't go quick enough for me... I don't want to wish time away, but goodness gracious I have lived like this for so long (just didn't know it) and I am ready to have sleep, real sleep not my pissy, crappy sleep ...
From my calculations I probably get about 2and1/2 hours of sleep a night. and that has been for years... My NP called me the other day and was pretty amazed at how bad my sleep apnea is and wanted to make sure I was following through and getting treated ...
My plan is to take a sleeping pill the first few nights when I get my machine and tell Randy he will have to get up with Rylan. I want to know what to feels like to be refreshed, for my brain to not feel so foggy, my muscles not to aches, no morning headache,no more chest pain, no shortness of breath and I have been reading that I will drop some of this weight that I have managed to pack on....Please if you pray for anything pray that my doctor has a cancellation and calls me to come in early .........