Friday, August 17, 2012

The blog will be continued at ...

The new blog will continue here..It will be much easier for my next book publishing ..
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I havent been posting much

I had my blog printed into a book and now I am not sure if I should start a new blog as I have done in the past when I had them printed out into hardbound book form..I will make this short blog though to give a quick rundown of things ...My very good friend JoAnna gave birth to her stillborn daughter Laura on June 26th ohh my such devastation she was full term actually 5 days past her due date and the cord wrapped around her neck and she died while JoAnna was in labor ...let me tell you my heart has been broken for her family there are just no words ..

This summer has been the summer of being flat out broke the renters have been having a very hard times too and will be moving at the end of next week then the process of re renting begins This time we are going to provide water and trash service and just charge a higher rent hopefully we are able to get renters soon and out get back to paying down the CC bill...
health wise I am doing pretty good my weight has gone down to 145 lbs wow I am feeling so good at this weight and don't wish to lose anymore ..
Mindi is back home with us for a while not sure what her long term plans are but we are hoping to get some moola saved up to get her into a house of her own so hopefully housing prices don't go up to quickly .I really don't think they will the economy is so bad right now :-( ..I keep hearing on the news that things are getting better but I do not see that with my own eyes ...so anyways thats the quick update..when I decide on what to do about a new blog or whatever I will post the link here ..

Monday, June 4, 2012

MRI is done

I went for my MRI of my cocaxx today. I hope they also got some of my lower spine. The girl said they got good pictures I really hope that translates into " we found out what in the hell is wrong with your back "  we shall see what my doc says in a few days...its so damn depressing to be in pain all the time or like today I had to take my pain patch off a day early cause you can't wear it for the mri we taped it back on but these patches are like scotch tape on fabric they completly loose the sticky after they have been used...ok so the MRI this time was much better than my others it was a newer machine I think and plus I am 65 lbs lighter so it felt a lot more roomy ..my back I noticed after laying there for 45 minutes seems like one side the side that hurts is bigger than the other side so I felt like I was laying sideways on a bit of a hill... they used a contrast dye for the last 15 minutes of scans ...please let these show something please please please....

Sunday, June 3, 2012

Another Book

I spent the $155.00 to get this blog made into a hardbound book this will be the 3rd one I have done I hate the thought of all my posts in the past few years to be lost forever ,hopefully my books wont be .Maybe when we are a bit more caught up on bills I will have a soft cover one of all my blogs combined to store in a safe place ..I was saving the posts to my computer so maybe I will see when the last time I did that was and copy all of the posts after that and make a DVD I feel the need to do something I just never get a chance ..when I feel good I feel like I should be doing something around the house like cleaning or cooking and when I feel bad I am not able to sit and do stuff at the computer ..story of my life oh well I don't need to be reminding anyone of the way I feel anymore its pretty much bad days and some good days for the most part things haven't been to bad though...

Update I went for my colonoscopy last week and the doc didnt see anything to concerning there and Monday I will go for a MRI to see if maybe I have a cyst on my coccax ..I HATE MRIs I hope its not the snotty lady that did it last time ughh laying there for 45minutes is really not as enjoyable as it sounds ...dont move move ,dont breath,dont burp, don't fart ,don't move your hand don't wiggle a toe one and on it goes then you have to pay out the ass when your all done blah...why cant someone just find what is wrong with me this is getting so old I cant even make simple plans for anything cause I don't know if I will be bedridden that day you know you know ughhh...ok so now that I have made a update I feel accomplished ...
I will try to get some pictures up next time ..we bought Rylan a 12 ft by 30 inch deep pool for his birthday and I sit at the desktop computer and watch him if I am not outside so I should be able to get some pics organized and up ..right now its raining,a nice warm rain but I am ready for the sun come Tuesday ...

Thursday, May 24, 2012

six years..

my baby is now 6 years old wow it sure has gone by quickly ...he is getting ready to lose his first tooth,  the big tooth is right behind it and we can see it very well :-)....
so today we went to toys r us and to the olive garden for dinner all he ate was bread sticks lol.....the weather today was cold brrr he asked me why its always like this on his birthday my answer was because it just happens to be the time of year you were born ..I am sure its confusing to him because last week was so summery warm.

Monday, May 21, 2012

maybe a answer for my butt/ back/leg pains

yes the old butt/back/leg feeling like I am sitting on a golfball pains could COULD be getting a answer on May 31st...I went to the proctologist doctor today like I told him "you look at butts all day " so maybe you can help me figue out why why why I am in so much pain all the time ...I explained my issue and he went to work with one of my most unpleasent tasks I don't like ..the rectal exam ...he felt something that don't feel right ..he didn't use the word mass or wnything but said it did not feel like cancer but it didn't feel right to him,  so he has scheduled me for a MRI of my coccyx and a colonoscopy so he can see what he can at this point only feel ..of course I couldn't think of any questions ...he said something else about something he could see that didn't look quite right but I can't remember what it was I know I know I should of asked more so I could google this stuff while I am waiting for my appointments ...he did bring up my barretts esophagus but I can't remember why..now I am wondering if my intestines are doing weird cell changes like my esophagus did ...
    in a way I am worried but in another way I am not ...I am at the point of feeling like I just want answers to why I have so much pain and why I can't sit on hard chairs because of the golfball lump feeling ...I want to know I am not just a sissy lala, lazy person :-( there are so many things I would love to do but phycicaly I am.just not able I hate living this way ..its no fun and I know it weighs heavy on Randy and my kids ..I am not the wife and mommy I want to be and that makes me sad ....sad for them and sad for me :-( I hate it I really do.....
so keep praying I get a answer obviously your prayers work better than.my own because this doc suggested these tests on his own.... didn't look at me like I am a nut case....didn't  tell me to lose weight and do more exercize ...I have already tried all those things they don't work for me..
  on a good note I am down about 70 lbs the weight is just falling off of me these days ...

Monday, May 14, 2012

i think i have figured this out

I am 100% sure that when I fell down the stairs at our last home about 17 years ago I broke my coaxxy bone tail bone, then when in popped while digging weeds in 2003 and went to the chyropractor something went wrong ...I have had issue with sitting everydince then..I am not sure what kind of doctor to see I do have a appointment with my pcp tomarrow and a proctologist on the 21st and a spine center on the 31st I may be cacelling the spine specialist not sure going to talk with my pcp first...I really really think this is my answer...maybe since I have lost 70 lbs that bone is pokeing out further when I sit and that's why there is so much more pain ...

Saturday, May 12, 2012

I have gone backwards ..

I have not been feeling so good lately started with a sore throat about 2 weeks ago that turned into severe stomach cramps ladt Saturday ..to severe back and leg pain on Wednesday...I have been dizzy and nauseated to top it of and complete exhaustion..I am.seeing my doc on Tuesday to get a refferal to a neurosurgen to get another opinion on my back because I could not hardly walk Wednesday ...I am very frustraited with my health...I just want to be well and and have a life where I can make plans to do things and actually be able to do them ...if your a prayer please pray for my health.....my poor husband and kids need a mom / wife that feels good and I need that to 10 years of this is just wearing me down and I just don't know what to do when I flair up in pain and sickness like this ...I also have a appointment with a proctoligist to see if he can tell me why when I sit I feel like I have a golfball stuck on the end of my tail bone that is also very painful...so that my blog pity party for the night...who know since my own prayers for myself don't work maybe yours will ...thank you

Tuesday, May 1, 2012

MY BMI.... I am just a little fat now :-)

I had to go to the docs today for a yucky sore throat ..she looked in there and seen blisters yikes Is been hurting for a while and this morning I could barley swallow my spit ughh anyways that's beside the point ...she was amazed at how good I look and how much weight I have lost ...I am telling you I get compliments everywhere I go now days on how good I look from my weight to my skin to my hair and even the doorman at 7 feathers complimented me on my fingernails LOL I only paint them myself and I bought a stamp design thing at good will that I use too anyways that's also besides the point ...

I have a BMI of 26 now that is just a little overweight.... 25 would be normal weight MY BMI 2 years ago was 36 that's OBESE.... I am so happy I am not obese anymore ..although I have no clothes that fit me anymore except 1 pair of pants and a couple of shirts I even had to buy new underwear cause mine were really really baggie LOL...I went from size 22/24 pants and 2x shirts to size 14 pants and XL shirts I bought a pair of workout pants (no I dont work out they were on clearance LOL ) size medium and they fit very well....so anyways I am getting skinny ...the chart my doc showed me had a graph on it I wish I would of asked for a printout of it ..imagine the stock-market chart crashing and that's what it looked like ...

Now to get rid of this yucky throat I have antibiotics I hope they kick in quick...
Also Rylan joined cubscouts and had his first pinewood derby last weekend pics to come later and he came home from school today with a metal for the read-a-thon will post pics of that when he is back from playing with his friends :-)

Sunday, April 29, 2012

Reset my stuff

So hopefully my blog wont be disappearing at the end of May ..My plan is to get another blog book printed before then si I will have a hard copy this one will be about $200. buckaroonies but it will be the third book in my collection after that I may continue this blog or I may start a new one so when I print my next one it wont be so darn big and will be a fresh new view maybe a bit more organized with my labels and all LOL..I like blogging if only just for me and my family so I do not want to stop altogether ..Thanks to all my faithful readers I hope that I have brought something to your life in one way or another Thanks fir Reading LaDawn :-)

cub scouts...derby race

Rylan is now going to be a cub scout he raced his first pinewood derby today it was fun.he even got a couple 2nd places out of the 6 round race totals ...of course daddy did most of the work but Rylan and I did stuff too...I was never able to have these moments with Andrew so its a new experience for us ...we are really trying to give Rylan the best childhood he can have with stuff and its giving us those experiences too...See when you have children with pretty severe disablilities you don't get to do all the normal stuff that kids would be doing at different ages...I want him to have the most perfect childhood as possible..I want him to not have worry or cares in his world till he is older and even then I want his worrys to be what color should he paint his car or should he play guns or baseball or soccer ...you know normal little boy fun things...we are very blessed to live on a road with good fun kids that love playing in the tree fort and don't have a lot of stress and worries in their lives,  just kids who want to.run and play and eat snacks ...
      our pollywogs have hatched and we watched them swimming around in the baby memorial garden pond so I am betting catching frogs is going to be a big hit again this summer...
             Randy and I live our lives to make things good for the kids I just need to get my white picket fence put up in the front of the house and I feel my dream will have been completed for this time in my life ...and will bring so much joy to my heart that me a 15 year old teen mother to a very sick little girl.to a 17 year old mom with a son who will always have the mind of a child to a mom.who buried not just 1 but 3 of my most wanted beloved babies..Me, I will get my white picket fence..
.I have done well ..there were many different road I could of gone down but I choose this one the one that is about my children my husband and my family ..
     my heart has been broken and I have decided that instead of crying about it everyday because I am honestly devastated over a private issue ...I am looking at it as a time to learn about me and reflect on my life and hopefully it is a learning experience that will make me into a better person in the long run ...sometimes things don't work the way I want and it gives me a chance to make the world at least my little place in the world a better place and more understanding and compassionate place ...I wish some things were different, but they are not ..I am sure I will have more tear filled days... but I have done what I could do and just need to accept things are the way they are because for what ever the reason I am supposed to.learn and grow and that's what life is about learning and growing even when the lesson is hard..I will come out the other side and will pat myself on my back and " yes this was hard but you came through it) but just for the record my heart is broke!


UPDATE I was just reading my comments and wanted to leave one back but my own blog wont let me ...Thanks to my hubby Randy for always being here for me no matter what I love you and I am looking forward to my white picket fence I have even seen the one I want at home depoe :-) I love you babe

Monday, April 16, 2012

Solar Animal Repeller

So I.got this for Christmas for my garden ...I wonder if anyone who reads my blog has one and if they really work...my poor stray cat miss kitty will be the first test subject after I plant my garden ...I havn't had a garden since our doggie died about 3 years ago,  he kept all the stray critters out of the yard. So untill the next dog comes around I need to do somethi.g to kerp the deer away we are also going to try the motion sprinkler (, miss kitty hopfully won't be testing that one out :-/ ) I spent a lot of money on seeds so want to protect my investment as much as possable.
        I started a new worm bin for eroupian nightcrawlers and plan on picking up 4 dozen next time I am at walmart or I may order some online. From what I have been reading they are good composters as well as being very good fishing worms and at $3.25 a doz I can kill two birds with one stone or compost bin heheheh and save a few bucks ...plus my freezer is getting to full of food scraps I need freezer room ...
    Speaking of freezers the outside deep freeze is going to get defrosted this summer too its packed to the top ..I am working on eating eating everything that we can to make the job easier. I don't think.I would buy a chest freezer again when we bought it I tbought it would be better as far as the door getting left open and it has been good for that but my gosh its a pain getting to the bottem of it...I just found a bag of frozen bell peppers from 2008 yesterday. I am thinking that the year I started getting sick I guess I could look back in my blog and find out for sure...
      so good news for today I weighed in at 155 lbs I have offcially lost 60lbs that's pretty good ( I may have been down to 154 about a month ago but I can't remember for sure I would have go back and read my blog I have not been to focused on my weight so not sure)  all of my clothes are to big on me even the ones I just recently bought at goodwill size 14 I was up in size 22/24 at my largest and those were snug ...I would be very happy to stay size 14...I am not sure what to do with my clothes I hate to get rid of them because what if I gain it back?  I finally broke down and bought cute clothes in size 2x shirts ...so for now I guess I will get a big rubbermaid bin to store them in cause my closet is stuffed ...