Monday, January 3, 2011

Tomarrow will be the 4th

It will be 1 month ago tomarrow/today depending on when you read this that my baby Brother shot himself ...gosh a month it seems like its been a lifetime but then is seems like it was yesterday ....
the phone call hearing my Mom voice it the background screaming not like screaming, screaming but that Oh My God he shot himself in disbelief screaming ....I did not even ask where he had been shot when John called, just hung up the phone and told Randy we had to go to the hospital.... "Billy had shoot himself"
Mindi was here we had just started working on my Moms Christmas present from Mindi...Mindi also had bought the boys new sweaters to get their pictures taken in ..those sweaters are still sitting on the end of the couch...
On the way to the hospital My SIL Anita called or My brother James I can't remember and told me Billy had shot himself in the chest... I thought OMG it won't be good, I was thinking earlier that maybe he shot himself in his head ...well when we arrived at the hospital someone told me that he was shot in the shoulder and I breathed a sigh of relief and thought, "well he will be ok then" ... Then a while later the ER doc came in and said it didn't look good but they were going to try and operate but he had lost half of his lung and damaged some very big artery's and lost 2 full body's worth of blood...the doc didn't think he could even handle the anesthesia for the surgery ...
Did you know when you have some one with a very life threatening condition they let your family stay in a private little room by the ER ? I did not know that till the 4th of December 2010...
Billy Forever 34

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