Back pains

Poor Andrew is now got a pulled muscle i. His back took him to the doctors yesterday and the medicine they gave him is not helping at all...going to call monday as hope they will give him somthing better ee have big plans next week and he needs to be feeling good. ..

sinus pinus

so Andrew and I have sinus infections and maybe Rylan does too he is still having bad green boogers so I took him in his doc was gone so we seen the blood draw doc from when Rylan was a baby ..he wants to try Rylan on a round of antibiotics. That sounds good to me he has been sick for over a month with this breathing thing ...so he is on amoxacillion I am augmaenton and Andrew is on Zpak .
Poor Andrew was so miserable last night with being stuffed up I am praying that is clears up today I have been giving him decongestentes but they are just not working very well I think maybe him I may go into town after Randy gets home and see about nasel spray or something..
Be nice if he was feeling somewhat better before then so we wouldn't need to go !!!

For My Children..

I am so lucky to have my Mindi~Andrew~and Rylan you are my story !!



All of these lines across my face
Tell you the story of who I am
So many stories of where I've been
And how I got to where I am
But these stories don't mean anything
When you've got no one to tell them to
It's true...I was made for you
I climbed across the mountain tops
Swam all across the ocean blue
I crossed all the lines and I broke all the rules
But baby I broke them all for you
Because even when I was flat broke
You made me feel like a million bucks
You do
I was made for you
You see the smile that's on my mouth
It's hiding the words that don't come out
And all of my friends who think that I'm blessed
They don't know my head is a mess
No, they don't know who I really am
And they don't know what
I've been through like you do
And I was made for you...
All of these lines across my face
Tell you the story of who I am
So many stories of where I've been
And how I got to where I am
But these stories don't mean anything
When you've got no one to tell them to
It's true...I was made for you

I have new appliances

Yeah me I love Love love them all Maytags i loved the maytag commercials from long agao ..where the maytag repair guy didn't have anything to do all day ...my last washer-dryer set were whirlpools, the washer still works but the dryer is what died...... They have done on average 2 loads a day everyday for about 13-14 years..
wow thats pretty amazing and considering the first 2years for the washer were while it sat out in a leantoo on our front porch,it was time to go though, it smelled like old towels and is starting to rust I tried cleaning it, bleaching it but nothing took the smell out I often wondered if a sock or something has gotten all wrapped up around the center swoosher thing.. it was definantly time to go when the dryer died ..
My friend takes them to the recycle place and earns her living that way ..so maybe she willl do that or maybe she can fix them and sell them, what ever the case it will help her and her family out so that makes me feel good !!
I am really starting to feel better my arm is still a bit sore but so so much better. I can't wait to start getting my house in order again .its been a hard few years, but we have made it through ...
People who have never been chronicly ill will never understand how devestating it is.. {{on the sick person and the whole family}} the worry,the stress, the expencive medications ,the medical procedures ,surgerys ,dealing with the bills wondering if you are ever going ot get well. Then there is the nsurance company to deal with while your sick,trying to cook family meals while #1 you can't swallow them #2 you vomit them back up in your sleep 3# cutting veggies and grating cheese with a arm that hurts so bad you feel like chewing it off daily...... the pain was so so severe...... I am not sure anyone understands how utterly discouraged I was getting about my health and think I was exagerating :-( I can tell you for sure I was NOT ...
A person like me learns who cares, who is a friend and who would like to give you a extra kick while your down sadly enough it really does happen.. when you have lived in the circumstances that I have lived through you see it all... and I let NOBODY kick me when I am down and just let it slide I can take some, but I will not tolerate anyone telling me how to raise my child the one I almost died giving birth to, the one who I would die if it meant he would have a chance to live.. my child MY SON mine and Randys who I may add is a awesome Father ..on 60m minutes Elton John was on this past Sunday and he was talking about how he was always terrified of his father when he was a child and that now he has a child he never wants his child to feel that fear from him ..Well thats how we feel about Rylan and how I want Mindi and Andrew and Casey to feel about Randy and me, we love these kids and want them to always feel good about seeing us even if I am mad or he is mad I want the love to come through first and formost...
I wish my trust and faith in people hadn't been tested so many times ..Is it this way for every one ? or just me ? I am pretty easy going and laid back, so I guess that means people think I won't mind ..well you know what, "I do mind, I mind alot" and "it hurts me alot" ...but such as life, I shall move forward, I guess this just means its time for a new chapter..
I am thankful for the caring support that I had but maybe its just time for me to focus on things around my home.. I am feeling better so I am able to focus on my yard and going back to work with Andrew... we are going to join the YMCA and Rylan is going to take swim lessons and Andrew and I water arobics ....

Disneyland 2010 for Rylan Birthday

We had a most wonderful time …we caught our plane at about 7 am on May 24th arrived in LA about 9 am and were walking in the gates to Disneyland by noon awe…. No 16 hours in a car……. just a hop skip and a jump away……. it was awesome !!!!!!! I hired a shuttle van to take us to our motel which we loved the Howard Johnston it was just across the street from Disneyland ..
Rylans first Ride was the Jungle Cruise and he loved it second haunted mansion not a good a choice and his third was the pirates of the carabien that wasn’t a good choice either lol he did not cry but he was not to excited about Disney at this point and a bit worried about this "fun place" we had taken him LOL….. so we headed over to the kiddie rides those were better but even some of then are very scary to a little kid he has a great little way about him though so it was all good… His favorite rides were the Pooh bear ride and it’s a small world he also loved soarin … We headed back to our room about 7 pm and had birthday cake minus the candles because we didn’t have any matches lol.. I ordered groceries to be delivered to our room……. 2 cases of bottled water, milk cereal, sandwich stuff and snacks this saved us a ton of money. We only ate out once a day and we did have a few snacks in the parks …Andrew was able to go with us and he also had a great time, having 4 of us was nice because that way none of us had to ride a ride alone if we didn’t want to. We never made it to a magic morning the earliest we made it to a park was 9am LOL …I can not wait till we get to go back…….. it honestly was one of the most relaxing vacations.. I have ever had. of course my leg and hip hurt but that’s pretty much normal life for me these days …

So that didn't work so well...

Last night I awoke to Ryaln saying something about something eat at MIDNIGHT !!...I mumbled ok in my sleep and rolled over ....thought for a minute.opened my eyes and yep the kitchen light was on ..... flew out of bed and he was just getting ready to microwave a flour tortilla ......R
Reminds on the first microwave I got for Christmas one year from my Dad... Andrew must of been about 4 and got up real early one morning and decided to cook a box a fish food I woke up to a house filled with smoke yelled to Randy that the house was on fire and took off to get the kids, of course Andrew wasn't in bed he was watching his fish food burning up...

Randy is going to have to pick up a lock on his way home... this just isn't safe and the Kid is a dang night owl ..I am going to wake his butt up a little earlier today!!!

Things that go bump in the night ....

Things or people like little boys that should be in bed asleep !!!!!!!!
So I woke up Thursday night at about 1 in the morning noticed the lights were on and Rylan was not in bed looked around the house ..when I say the lights were on I mean EVERY light in the house even the closet lights. I have no idea how long he had been up, but I found him in Randys room on my side of the bed (well what used to be my side before I started sleeping in Rylan room to try and get him to sleep on his own )on the floor with our huge flashlight that he found in the closet.. he said something to the effect that he needed some light LOL ...Back to bed we went with the huge flashlight, it didn't have much charge thank goodness, because it gets hot enough that it could burn someone or maybe even start a fire Yikes....
None of the other kids were quite the explorer Rylan is ...its scary ...the week before Andrew was staying and Rylan waited till I feel asleep to sneak out (he tried like three times and I caught him LOL)and play Nintendo with Andrew I just about had a heart attack when I couldn't find him at first ..turns out he took Andrews mattress and Andrew was on the floor and all I seen was blankets, Andrew was completely covered and Rylan was hanging out just a bit so I had to turn on the lights to see that it was him...This kid is a sneaky one !!!!!!!!!!!

Doctor,Doctor

Andrew goes Tuesday to get the results of his sleep study ... I go Wednesday to hopefully find out what is going on with my breathing. I will get another PFT and chest x-ray ...Rylan has been sick but I think he is feeling better so hopefully no doctors for him ...

quick update..

Andrew turned 25 yep 25 where did the years go my goodness...we celebrated at 7 Feathers one of his favorite places.. He loves the slots and the new buffet....
He also had a sleep study done and turns out he also has sleep apnea and is now on a CPAP like Randy and I...
The antibiotics were a waste of time and money $148.00 :-0
I will be seeing the pulmonoligist next week ...I am thinking of getting a referal to a cardioligist as well, WTH ehh........Oh and I also have a appointment for a rhuematoligist May 4th just in case this is auto immune... Hopefully I will be able to breath well again sometime soon ...
My Doc thinks it may be pulmonary hypertension my pressure is 34 so not real high just a bit high so it could be that..... but it also could be some else too... that's why I want to see the other specialist.. I want to make sure that what I get treated for is really whats causing my problems...
Rylan is sick right now started running a fever last night and now has a yucky cough .. and Mindi is just getting over bronchitis for the second time this winter..

Here is Andrew all wired up for his sleep study

A Bruno Dream

I dreamed about Bruno last night I was going to pick up his ashes... only he wasn't ashes he was a very pretty glass and etched in the glass were some of his memories they were one memory each of him with us individually and the really cool thing was if you moved the glass you would see a different memory ...and I kept asking the funeral lady why everybody didn't get these and how happy I was that I got the glass thing instead of just ashes...
The funeral lady who in my dream happens to be a family friend (Joan) was taking me home and we were following her mother and there was a tree fallen in the road, on a corner and past the corner the road was washed out and her mother was being helped out of the water by Rod, his truck had went under farther ahead ...Mindi and Andrew were toddlers and Rylan wasn't with me although his memory was eched into the glass with Bruno, which by this point had become smaller pieces so I could share them with people..... I was trying to figure out how to take the glass pieces and the kids and get us to the helicopter that was landing to rescue us then I woke up

This Swine flu...

This swine flu is making me nervous... I am a germaphobic anyways and this is very scary....... I don't want to leave the house and am thinking of stockpiling some milk and bread so I don't have to... we have everything else, wait except chocolate so I need to get some of that to ...the bad thing is that since Randy still has to leave the house and go to work everyday and we are still exposed just like everyone else that has to work I can't imagine how scary it would be to live in Mexico city or new york city where the virus already is... I am going to pick him up some hand sanitizer because my red wipes won't work against the flu.... I guess even though he has to work it would still be good to stock up in case it comes here and his work shuts down for a while, then we really wouldn't have to leave the house and expose ourselves to more that we have to ..I have a appointment to finish getting my teeth cleaned today I am still going to in but may cancel my appointment for a small filling I need next week until this swine thing blows over....I am also getting my new crown May 12 I really hate to cancel that appointment so will have to play it by ear...Randy was reading last nigh that the 1918 flu that is like this one would kill a person in ONE day you would wake up feeling sick and then die the same day how scary is that 1918 flu wbesite

CDC website for info on the swine flu

I just came across this info stating that it was bacteria that cause the deaths in 1918

In any case wash wash wash those hands and keep them away from your face !!!!


The weather here has been a little cooler here the past few days... I was in the office scanning pictures and thought hmmm Rylan is being awfully quiet... so I went to find him, turns out he wanted to go outside and play on the deck and was getting himself dressed so he wouldn't get cold ... I had to let him go out for a minute after all that work LOL...




Reminds me of the time when Andrew was little and wanted to go outside when it was really cold he put on my snow boots and off he went...I think he had a shirt and diaper though LOL ...

Mostly Pictures Day

Been busy the weather has been so nice that we have been out to play in the yard doing a bit of gardening and also made a day to visit Grandma and the cousins along with Mindi and Andrew..We had a great time with them and Rylan just adores the big boys and his sister and brother.. so not a lot of reading for you today just pictures with captions ...
Life without Rylan having to take medicine every night is great even though he liked this new medication better, you just never knew if he was going to protest and protesting wasn't fun, we also couldn't let him just fall asleep each night when ever he wanted to so if he hadn't had his medicine it was either wake him up or give it to him the next day usually this was not a problem though as he was/is quite the night owl.... anyways blah blah blah its nice not having to do it...
Chele asked what he was looking so intently at in her comment on the st. Pattys day pic and that's the start of our garden.. Rylan and I started seeds and have them growing in the bathroom, we have skylight so its working quite well for them...




Rylan couldn't hold still one minute longer the boys were having a hard time to as you can see LOL


Planting Seeds Rylan started pumpkins "Biiigggg Pumpkins He says" and tomatoes !

Heartburn...uhggg

Its 3 am and here I sit after 3tums and 1 prilosec.. Waiting for my heartburn to pass... It's times like these that I miss TV I could be getting caught up on all the news right now........ its been a full month of no TV now ...
I talked to Andrew yesterday and he informed me that survivor started last night and the Amazing Race my very favorite reality show is starting Sunday *SNIFFLE SNIFFLE* This living like no one else, so later we can live like no one else.. is a little tough ...
But on the bright side I am getting a few more things done like cupboards are getting cleaned out and reorganized and in March I am going to do a get rid of one thing a day challenge..... Me and Rylan are listening to more music via my MP3 player ( our radio doesn't pick up real well here in this little gulch)He loves music and singing along..
I know it will be better in spring when we can hang out in the yard more I plan on letting Rylan little garden his own with carrots and sunflowers, tomatoes and maybe a pumpkin...

After doing more Research

I have found so much good info on heath care reforms... At this point I am saying it is my mission I have never really been involved with any group or politics ..

Well I take that back I did join in on a mission to have Andrew be mainstreamed into regular classrooms when he was getting ready to start kindergarten he went to a special preschool and the school as a group mother and teacher fought for the right to have our kids in with the "normal" kids .....
Also when Andrew was in high school... I had to put my foot down about his IEP He wanted to take history class every year He LOVES history... Then at the end of the year {or maybe when he had graduated} his history teacher said the other kids were amazed at how much he knew and that it was a real blessing that he was in the class it was good for Andrew and for the other kids Thant made me feel really good that I had stood up for what he needed and not just went with the flow ....Don't get me wrong when I say had to put my foot down it wasn't really a fight,
just standing up for what my son needed..
His high school was WONDERFUL I couldn't of asked for any better people to be with him daily for those years... I love them and he loves them...
Oh and I also had to put my foot down for him to stay in middle school for a extra year so he could be with his friend.... It all sounds so easy and simple there is so much more to it....
In raising children with health issues and developmental issues I have seen so many different things I have so many stories, so many long stories, happy stories, sad stories, stories that would just make your jaw drop ...

So anyways my new mission is health care I guess you may have figured it out by my post the other day so from now on I will be writing more about it.. I will be writing more of what my life has been like in raising the kids and what I have seen in health care myself and why its important to me.....
I don't want my health to be a commodity that is traded on the stock market.. I never really knew how health insurance worked....
We have it, as a matter of fact we have pretty good insurance, we pay out the ass for it, but it is good insurance so this is not about us right now ...
I have also had state medical in the past and have had no insurance in the past.....
When Mindi was a baby we were told that she could no longer see doctors at the clinic because we had no money and no insurance this was when she was a baby, a very sick dying baby she had to see the doctor every week, if not more, I will forever be grateful to Dr. Frisbee and Dr. Anderson for paying our bill out of their own pockets and then seeing her for free..WE did apply for a state medical card but Mindi's dad made 20 or 30 dollars over the amount to qualify and I don't think he was working enough hours to get insurance.. That's just a smidgen of what I have seen and been through in the past 26 years .......

Anyways I will be adding links to this health care plan that I think is the answer to my health care and would benefit my family and my kids and grand kids in the future

Single Payer Insurance

http://www.guaranteedhealthcare4all.org/

Happy Birthday to My Andrew

How it all happened with Andrew ....
He was due January 20th and had been breach for my whole pregnancy well at least since the doc could feel what position he was in ... So we waited to see if he would flip....
I had a doc appointment to see how I was doing the 24th and when they took my blood pressure it was rising I was getting Pre-e (called toxima back then) I also had it with Mindi and both her and I almost died ...
My Doctor sent me strait to the hospital to have a c-section..I was given the choice of being put to sleep or staying awake.. I choose to be asleep ( I wish I had chosen to stay awake now) I was so scared, this was before c-sec were so common like now and I was worried I would feel the pain ....
when I woke up in the recovery room I was in awful horrible pain probably the worst pain I have ever had in my life, besides labor pain ... It took about 45 minutes for them to give me any pain meds something about wanting to make sure I was awake from surgery or something ....
Finally after I don't know how long I was able to go up and see my little Andrew 6lbs 10 oz sweet little baby man ....I slept with him on my chest the whole time I was in the hospital and this was when they would take the baby to the nursery so you could "get so me rest".... nope not for me I wanted him with me the whole time... He was such a good little baby, very calm and good natured, he still has the same persona today and I tell you I am so very thankful and blessed to have him in my life..

So now 24 years later we will be picking him up and shopping for video games then out to dinner at one of his favorite restaurants a teppenyaki grill where they cook the food in front of you with the flipping of spatulas and food... I don't think they flip knives.....

Three Nights Sleep...

Three Nights Sleep in a row after three nights of insomnia ...What a feeling I just love having a good nights sleep ....I have been home all week its been nice to just hang out and not be on the go constantly... Tomorrow is Andrews birthday 24 years old wow I can't believe how different my life is now compared to how it was when he was born...
We were so poor I mean couldn't even afford propane poor, we used propane for heat and hot water and cooking, we lived in a single wide trailer that we rented for $265.00 a month it was in a trailer park with a laundry room and a bathroom with showers.. cooked on a hot plate and heated all the water for dishes on the hot plate and we used space heaters for heat with curtain hung blocking the hall to keep the heat in the living room during the day ....

He dosen't miss me

Took some more things to Andrew Monday, I asked him if he misses me he said noooo ... Thats my Andrew for you LOL .... I am so happy he is happy, I knew he would be.. Its so quiet here now, mostly from me always telling him what to do LOL
well except for when we were in the car or eating then he liked to talk nonstop LOL...
I miss him but am getting used to him not being here, Rylan is having a great time playing in his empty room.... Rylans up gotta run for now ....

Andrew-isums

so after we had packed the stuff Andrew was taking with him today ..
he looks at me and says
Its been nice, I had fun living here!
Like he had just been visiting for the weekend
My heart just melted
thats Andrew for you,
I just said "it been nice
having you here :-)
or something to that effect...
I started tearing up on the way back to town from dropping him off
Mindi claims I was all out crying...
I Did Ok, till I met up with Randy then the tears came again..
I really am happy thet he has such a good place to go
Its just weird thinking he is actually LIVING there ...
I picked out some paint chips for the colors I am painting
his old room,
AKA my new craft room
going to buy paint with my last paycheck 2 weeks from now
here are some goodbye pictures we took today

Car packed up

Hugging Mindi goodbye

Me and Andrew

Today is the Day

WOW its move out day for Andrew..
He is a little nervous ...
He drew me pictures of Greek Gods (I didn't even ask LOL) Its now posted on my refrigerator
So between him and my friend Chele
she sent me the vacation DVD
which we watched it the night we got it,*LOVE* that movie, Thanks Chele..
I am covered in 2 of My most important things according to Andrew LOL

Rylans Peebag test came back fine and he is much better A sure way to make a child well is to just pay for a office visit and a urine culture they will be well before you step out the door........ Oh well I am just glad he is better and that I have gotton some sleep..Stay tuned for vacation pictures.....

Monday is Signing Papers Day...

Got the call yesterday that Pam accepted the new offer
(the first offer was messed up/way low)
we go sign papers and make it legal Monday,
Andrew will have a new home
and I will have a new craft/storage room.

I am looking forward to to it.

After seeing how sad it made Andrew
when it almost didn't happen
made me realize that
I do want him to go
I want him to be happy .
I want him to make his own life..
Because thats what he wants ......

I am already thinking of what colors
I want to paint the room
I want a girly room full of color
a bright cheerful room ...
I am thinking a mix of
strawberry and orange sherbet colored paint
with some
white strips not sure what way
I want the strips to go
vertical or horizontal....
I LOVE painting and haven't
been able to do much since Rylans been born
I can't wait to get started .....