J.O. s wife Sherril Passed away

We heard the news while we were at Disneyland she had a massive stroke..... but I really believe it was from a broken heart, JO was her life ...I am glad she is with him now, they were two people that I really, really liked.......The last time I seen Sherill before JO died (about a month before) she said I really needed to try and get over the babies deaths, so I could make it to church and sit through church with out crying the whole time..... I had told her it was just still so hard for me ... She didn't say it in a mean or condescending way, just a way that showed that she really didn't understand how badly loosing them babies devastated my whole being, from the center of my soul ~ to every cell in my body which surprised me because she had lost a baby in about her 6th month of pregnancy too!!!!
After JO died I could see in her eyes and hear in her voice that she understood it then..... And now a year later she is gone from what I truly believe was grief induced ..she had had a stroke about 6 years ago and had been doing wonderfully since then..
I don't say this about her to make her look bad but just maybe to open others eyes that grief really is that bad... my other friend Virginia has a quote quote on her face book says (well I need to go hunt it down its a good one )anyways I will really miss Sherill and JO they were a big part of my life after I lost Wyatt,then while I was pregnant with my girls then loosing them and through my whole pregnancy with Rylan they were one of a kind good old farm folks and some of the nicest, nicest people I have ever know....I just know JO was there to great her with his big happy smile... and they are having a grand time together...

Warmth, Warmth, Warmth ...

Yes sir-eee........
it was warm here yesterday..........
T shirt weather beautiful, beautiful, beautiful...
Have I mentioned how ready I am for summer? How sick I am of being stuck inside, everyday, all day ...
Rylan needs to run off some energy and I need to warm up my bones.....
Looks like today is going to be another beaut, then rain is coming :-(
I hope its nice this weekend ..We have plans and they
are outdoor plans..........

Went to J.O. memorial service yesterday it was nice and we got to see pictures of him when he was young seems he was a bit of a rowdy feller when he was young, LOL he will really be missed .....
at the end a man played amazing grace on the trumpet after he finished, he walked out down the center of the church almost in tears, saying that one "was for J.O." Randy even got a tear in his eye watching him and we were thinking how good of friends they must of been and how much this guy was going to miss J.O.
After the service we had to go out to the parking lot to get some wipes for the potluck and seen the trumpet man and Randy asked him how he knew J.O. and the guys says " I only met him once " we were like "oh" He didn't tell us how when or why then Randy and him started talking about trumpets because Randy used to play trumpet and his dad played trumpet too.......
It was just kind of strange, and now I can't help wondering what the story is was he someone down on his luck and seen about the service in the paper? was he someone who J.O. made such a impact on his life that he feels so grateful that he was broken up over J.O.s passing ...I will have to remember to ask J.O.s wife sometime if she knows who the guy was.....

I hate death ....

I hate the way it makes you feel inside ..
Sunday morning I learned that my friend Rena's Grandmother passed away she had been suffering with cancer and was {I am thinking} in her 80s and was ready to go...I felt sad hearing the sadness in Rena's voice but also the relief that her Grandma was no longer in pain ...
We then got home from town and find out that a man from out church died in the afternoon His name was J.O. (Joe) and he was a really nice man I don't think there have many times that I have left church or his house {I had only been to his house once} without telling Randy how much I really liked J.O.
He had also come over to do some tractor`ing in our yard and helped spread the dirt for our lawn ...
He always had a sparkle in his eye... I can't describe how he was, just down to earth and caring but not in a huggy + feely soft way, but in a farmer been there, done that its just life kind of way..
The last time I seen him was about a month ago and its the first time we had been to church since the remodel and I was talking to him about the the new heat in the church and was he going to miss coming to start the wood stove before church every Sunday and he just had that twinkle in his eye as he said no way not at all, but the wood stove in the dining room was still there for him :-).........
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He was diagnosed with liver cancer about 4 years ago and was able to beat it and was cancer free till just recently....When we seen him last month they had just learned the cancer had come back, he went to Portland for an experimental procedure to cut the spots off his liver..... he had some issue after surgery, but was then feeling better making plans to come home then for some reason his kidneys failed the docs thought they could jump start start them with dialysis and then send him home, his wife had just talked to him that morning before the dialysis and he was fine ..

After he was hooked up to dialysis he lost blood pressure and died that quick ....

For some reason, I am not sure the hospital called a man from our church to let him know ..and then a group from from church went to tell his wife, she had no idea {I don't know why the hospital didn't call her first}
I know that J.O. was fine with dying {we all should be right, we all have to do it sooner or later ..}
And it was a great blessing to his family and friends to have the extra 4 years with him and and I guess if I had to pick a way to go for myself, it would be in much the same way as J.O. he didn't suffer greatly and I know from what happened after I had Rylan that when you loose your blood pressure there is no great fear or pain, just tiredness, you just go to sleep...

he had true faith that he would be moving on living in the light of the Lord..... but my heart is deeply saddened for his wife Sherrill

I took this picture last month when we went to church I don't think I have any of the front of J.O. thats him with his legs stretched out in front of him in black cowboy boots..Him and his wife always sat in front of us at church so this was how I seen J.O. most every Sunday and there is also a picture of the back of his head on the funeral page of the babies website ...

Rest in peace J.O.



if your wondering why I have a picture of the back of his head its because I was taking pictures of my friends little girls dedication and just cropped the picture down....