A Bruno Dream

I dreamed about Bruno last night I was going to pick up his ashes... only he wasn't ashes he was a very pretty glass and etched in the glass were some of his memories they were one memory each of him with us individually and the really cool thing was if you moved the glass you would see a different memory ...and I kept asking the funeral lady why everybody didn't get these and how happy I was that I got the glass thing instead of just ashes...
The funeral lady who in my dream happens to be a family friend (Joan) was taking me home and we were following her mother and there was a tree fallen in the road, on a corner and past the corner the road was washed out and her mother was being helped out of the water by Rod, his truck had went under farther ahead ...Mindi and Andrew were toddlers and Rylan wasn't with me although his memory was eched into the glass with Bruno, which by this point had become smaller pieces so I could share them with people..... I was trying to figure out how to take the glass pieces and the kids and get us to the helicopter that was landing to rescue us then I woke up

No More Inhailers

I took myself off them I believe I am having a bad reaction to the propellant in them ..I am still having shortness of breath but its better without the inhalers at least for now..I have been taking Ibroprofin for the anti-inflammatory properties ..I am still waiting for my docs to call back after my methocholine test and I have an appointment with a pulmologist at the end of October..
yes my friends even with insurance and not being able to breath, you still have to wait a month for a appointment with a specialist... I will also be getting a sleep test done because I quit breathing while I sleep it called sleep apnea we have recorded it and I have listened to it ..Poor Randy I don't know how he manages to get sleep when I am sleeping in there with him :-( he has probably enjoyed this past year since I have been sleeping with Rylan LOL... The nights are starting to turn cold brrrr we thought about camping out this weekend but are maybe going to change our minds ...I told Randy if we had a nice travel trailer it wouldn't of made any difference what the weather was we could of still went ....
We are still working on paying the house in town off and getting close, so that where money for trailers and fun has gone well there and to doctors and trips to see doctors ...
I am still missing Bruno.. Last night when Randy stopped to get the mail one of our newer neighbors was also getting his mail and Randy introduced himself and had mentioned that we had put our dog to sleep and the neighbor was "Bruno, Bruno's gone" and was saddened by the news.... funny all our neighbors knew and loved Bruno even if they didn't know us ..When I was leaving for town yesterday one of our other neighbors was pulling in the road and stopped to ask how Bruno was she has come down the first day the vet was here and I told her that we had to have him put to sleep she was sad for us and said her grandson just loved Bruno and he called him 'woof' and that Bruno would lay down and watch her grandson play with his cars awe sweet stories of Bru~nee he really was such a good boy we still miss him ...

In loving Memory of Bruno !!!

Its been a very sad week Our sweet old boy Bruno passed away last week August 27th after being crippled by a pinched nerve we did all we could do to try and get him to walk again but it didn't work ..

You know I didn't think I would be this sad when he passed He was old I knew that... I just thought we would get a few more years out of the the old guy it was so quick took me by surprise... I am just glad we were home and were able to take care of him and give him lots of extra love and tender loving care in his last days ..I always wonder when I look at pictures of people in my family like great great grandparents and see a dog or cat wondering around in the background what was their pet like, was it just a pet or a real part of the family, you know ...so this is a post all about Bruno and his life through my eyes ...

Bruno came home with us in about June/July 1997 as a little pup, Andrew is who picked his name and he was going to be Andrews dog .. he turned out to be all of the neighborhoods dog though everyone loved Bruno he loved greeting all the kids on their way to and from school... All the neighbors just loved him... he would always lay out by our road, its a dirt one and alot of the neighbors stopped to give him a dog treat and Bruno just loved that... whenever we come home from town he was always waiting at the top of the driveway with a smile on his face just knowing we were home made him happy plus the usual bonus of maybe a doggie bag or some left over french fries and unfinished ice cream cone but even without a treat he was always happy to see us ...
The only time I ever seen him sad was when Shady died he would lay out in the field keening for her we felt so bad for him he really really missed her..I am sure they have met up now though....
After I lost the babies he was there for me every night, after Randy went back to work... In my most darkest lonely times I leaned on him so much, he didn't care if I cried for hours every evening, he never looked away or wanted to escape from the sadness... he would just sit with me and look at me with his pretty brown eyes...I will forever be grateful to my Bruno for his understanding...
A Bruno story...
One night we woke to the most awful sound you can imagine at about 2am barking, growling, screeching,yelping, splashing...omg.... it was Bruno fighting a huge raccoon out in the pond... we screamed and yelled for him to quit, he ignored us... Randy got the shotgun and shot it off into the air, he ignored that to, usually he hated the sound of gun shots or fireworks ... Randy had to get in the pond and try to get Bruno out with out getting in the way of the raccoon it was so awful man I can't even remember how we got it to stop... I know the raccoon died and Bruno lost a toenail ...That is the only time I have ever seen Bruno like that, he really didn't like raccoons...
In the past year or two I really learned how special Bruno was he had never really been around little babies or toddlers to much but the gentleness he showed Rylan really really gave me and extra appreciation for him and how loving of a dog he was sometimes Rylan would not be watching where he was walking and would stumble on top of Bruno and Bruno would just look up at him and then at me like "awe did you see him trip over me, he loves me" LOL That was Bruno and Rylan would say the same about Bruno :-) they really loved each other its almost as though they thought along the same lines ...
I really miss that big stinky dog and every time I ever smell a skunk I will always feel like its Bruno stopping by to say "hi" he was always getting sprayed by skunks ....He was a horrible watchdog, the kind that would invite to takwe what ever you wanted for a little pat on the head...He never even once in his life barked at the UPS man, how's that for gental giant ..ohh he will be missed the yard is so quiet..it just don't have the same happy glow now I didn't realize how ofter I would open a door or just go outside for a while just to say his =name or any of the hunderds of variations of his name ..he was deaf for most of this past summer so we would really have to jump around to get his attention and maybe he didn't hear much but I still liked hearing all his name roll off my tongue..I miss you Bruno onooo spoono, goono, prunno,Big guy, stink guy ...tunooo...fat butt..the list goes on and on .....

Next verse, Same as the first

Me and a neighbor lady going to go for a walk with the kids this morning .
neighbor comes over says he can fix the van for us "Its easy he says" as he opens the door and jumps in .... He leaves the door open and takes off jogging barefoot on the dirt road..
we put our dog in the fence so he won't follow us up the road, start walking get 2 houses up the road, here comes our dog ..so we walk back I get Randy to put Bruno on the chain ..neighbor comes over while we are still standing there and lets Bruno off.... I tell you if it wasn't so odd and scary it would be funny around here ..he is still looking for his glasses and the pack of cigarette's the neighbor bought him..... I don't think his sister has come by and if she has nothing has changed ...
another neighbor called us to see what we knew about the guy hanging out by the pump house He said he had talk to him the night before and could tell he is crazy, wanted to know if we think he is dangerous......the neighbor told him he was thirsty so the concerned neighbor went and got him a gatoraid ...It is nice to see how caring the neighbors on our road are with the neighbor even though we are all scared and worried we do realize that its beyond his control and know that we can't let him go hungry or maybe we are just worried of making him angry or that he will get hungry enough that he will just start letting himself in and helping himself to what he wants..

Email turned Blog post :-) ((I believe this is when the toxic mold started))

**** I am editing this on March 21 2016 I found out a month ago that our home has Toxic Black mold they really bad ones I believe this is when my illnesses started ....Its all making sense now what happend and I am so sad I was so sick for so long with no real answer...Well now I have answers and my kids and I are improving everyday...The closet that this water heater leaked for 8 year unbeknownst to us a screw was screwed right through the bottom of the tank from the ***** manufactured home place  ***** 

More things I didn't get to blog about yesterday....I was emailing my friend Chele and thought hey I will just copy paste, how convenient for me LOL

We lost water pressure sunday evening and it was when we were out at the pump house that I noticed our nutty neighbor had put up the fence .

We called the well/pump people....the pump and pressure tank looked fine,

turns out its our water heater leaking all over the place grrrrr

Today we are buying a new one and having it installed....

so that makes my stove

the dishwasher

and the water heater all in a matter of a week very odd don't you think .

and to top it off our dog Bruno was missing all day yesterday, we were thinking the nutty neighbor did something to him

The neighbor had told randy that morning that our dog never goes up there anymore, that he was scared of something

Then he told me that our dog was up in his yard laying down and not to worry that he was just fine, I told him when randy woke from his nap i would send him up to get bruno and the neighbor was all, no Bruno is fine don't worry about it ...weird weird weird..... anyways our dog ended up coming home in the evening with the neighbor...... neighbor was telling us how him and bruno have a really special connection they always have.....

I am a bit worried for us, its people like this, that stab people to death and cut off their head on greyhound buses .....I am keeping our doors locked and keeping my eyes out and am thinking I will put a baby sleeping, please do not disturb sign on my door so he will hopfully not come knock on my door because I don't plan on opening it ......

Our hope is that him and the wife have to sale the house and he is out of here sooner rather than later... We do feel bad for him, because we realize its not something he can help.... I have no idea what a person in his position has to do in order to get help or why they let him back on the streets when he is obviously not well.....He is there all alone, no job and no car and we live about 12 miles out of town ... What if he asks for a ride to town ? crap I don't want to be giving him rides and at the same time I don't want to piss him off at us............... see the delima ugh..........Why oh Why oh why...........