They just make a person realize how quickly your life can change ....In a Instant,,, everything you know, feel and believe about everything can be taken away from you.. any of us, at any time...
The new blogs that I have put up show a side of grief that I don't think people that haven't been through a horrible loss can ever really know what *ITS* like.... I can tell you that looking at it from the outside is about a gazzillion times different than living it every day....
After I lost my twins and Wyatt I had a hard time thinking about them and what life may of been like..
I woke up the other morning with Rylan by my side and my first thought was that Rylan is living the life I had dreamed about with Wyatt..Things like that just pop into your head at different times ...
Its like you go around just thinking about them on the surface, but not letting it sink in to deep (its hard to describe how it feels)Then boom something like that goes through your mind and brings it all back how much you miss them .. Even though they are always in my thoughts, at the same time, its like it almost happened to somebody else....
Grief does strange things to your mind.. Even years later.... It weird to live the parallel life of happiness and sadness at the same time.....
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2 comments:
i never know what to say when you write these type of entries because i don't know what it's like but i just want to say that even though wyatt isn't here with us i'm glad we can have rylan here to enjoy the things that he would have done--even as hard as it may be.
i love you mom.
Hugs! Amen to everything! You never know Ryland and Wyatt could be the same sweet spirit. We know in our hearts we can't replace one baby for another, but many believe that the spirit chooses us and if the pregnancy fails they sometimes come back to us in another pregnancy. It's a sweet thought to hang onto whether it's true or not.
Wishing I was there to give you a hug in person.
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