cardioligist ...

He was very nice to me ....but I think he thinks I am a hypochondriac and my breathing problems are stress related.. I am going in for a nuclear stress test Monday and Tuesday,  while I hope everything is fine, I hate it when doctors think its stress related ....
                       I asked Randy what he thought and he definitely agrees with me that its not from stress although I do have stress, "don't we all" I honestly and Randy and my Mom honestly do not think that's what this is ...
           
                 The doc lets call This Doc  Doc K. told me his own story about how he would get stressed out in med school and get shortness of breath I don't think his lasted for a year........ like I said he was very nice about......
                  he really doesn't think that its going to be paradoxical vocal cord dysfunction either, not that he knows that much about it actually I don't think he really knows anything about it since when he said he didn't think I have it he called it by a different name ughh ..
                  he was shocked when I told him that I have had to have my esophagus dilated 5 times since April I could see it in his eyes "is this girl for real, who the hell gets their esophagus dilated almost once a month " it has been 5 times hasn't it?
     let me see in April when I first had the swallowing problem they dilated ,
        then when I hade the RFA they dilated,
         then 6 weeks later they dilated ,
         then i had the balloon dilation with steroid shots ,
                then the balloon again with steroid shots
             yep that 5 times since April and one of those times I woke up in the middle of it, it was not pleasant having a rod rammed all the way down your throat  and waking up..all I remember is the pain and someone telling me "your ok Mrs. W, your going to be ok" I was trying to scream, but I couldn't because of that dowel shoved down my throat I could moan though and I did ... then woke up in my room  ...

                               I guess if Doc K knew everything that I have been through in the past year that would even make him more inclined to think its stress related.... don't get me wrong I told him about everything, just not all the little details like the manometer up my nose and shoved down my throat then slowley pulled out while I sipped water and the awful awful thrush I got afterwards ...
                 yeah I am a little stressed now That's for sure with all these tests I have done and I still don't know why the hell I can't breath and why do the steroids make it better if its just stress ? I forgot to ask him that """ughhhh"" !!!!!!!!!!  

 So anyways I will go next week for these tests......... I told Doc K  if they come back fine  it will be one less thing I will have to stress out about :-)
                Oh and he also wants me to start exercising I told I don't have a problem doing that, but if I can't breath I feel like I could drop dead and its very frightening for me........ after this test I will know that my heart is ok and I have already been told my lungs are ok so I guess I will get on the elliptical and try to do a little each day I think he was surprised to hear that I have an elliptical since I am chubby, but I was never this chubby till the pregnancies and this breathing problem .......
            Oh how I feel so sorry for the really really obese people and what they must go through........ to get medical help, seems everything is based on how fat you are, with no consideration to why or how you got that way !!!! I mean who wants to weight 300 400 or more lbs and get all the stigma attached to it it makes me sad, really sad !!!!!!!!!!!!
            I have decided that I am not posting my health issues on facebook anymore ...I feel so depressed about it and and starting to feel self conscious that people may be starting to think I am a bit crazy, nobody has said anything of course....... but I don't know....... right now I just am frustrated with my body !!!! and the answers are so slow coming or no answers at all
                          but I have found issues so I know its not all in vain my poor Andrew with his sleep apnea being sooo bad it scares me to think how much his life could of been shortened had I not started down this trail of shortness of breath answers ..
    Thankful for Randy and his noticing how bad my breathing is at night and encouraging me to get sleep study ....Thankful that my Mom watches the docotors and Dr Oz religiously and told me to get into the gastro when I couldn't swallow becuase she though I had hiatal hernia which found the Barrett"s esophagus , a hernia, along with a stricture..
 My Dads wife for telling me to get in with the rhumatoligist  for my fibro and lupus
My friends Joanie, Sherrie and Lisa for having me go to the allergist and Lisa for giving me the name of a really good one who listened to me and suggested the vocal cord issue that if anything I am so hoping and praying this is the answer....
         I am really lucky to have friends and family who don't dismiss my complaints and take me seriously.... and know that this is all real, its not in my head........ I have real issues and slowly but surely I am getting it figured out even if I do feel like a complainer at times :-(    
                 Oh and one more thing this heart Doc K suggests that I should be on blood pressure medicine so I am going to discuss that with my primary doc along with the fact that my shoulder is still very painful ...on a good note my tennis elbow seems to be about 99% improved, yeah !!!